[Rudy]

- Mon Aug 21, 2017 5:40:02 am #9069 I'm so fucking worried about tonight. Especially with Cass having immunity. She was the one person I was hoping I could potentially blindside... But with her having immunity, I IMMEDIATELY went to her and commiserated about us being exposed as "the top contenders" in the game and how we need to ensure we are protected moving forward. I hope it worked, because the LAST thing I need now is Cass striking at me this round. And besides, it actually is advantageous for her to keep me. I wasn't lying to her when I said we could both become targets.

Probably the biggest goal of mine right now is to see where Ozzy's head is at long-term... Our F5 alliance is really strong, but unlike Mia/Sarah's suggestion that no one is playing hard, I think we all want to win. I can see things fracturing really soon, and I just don't want to be on the wrong side.

What I've got right now in terms of alliances:
Ozzy/Yul/Andrea/Cass/Rudy
Ozzy/Yul/Rudy (Becky Bros)
Andrea/Yul/Rudy
Rory/Yul/Rudy

Obviously, I have pretty strong individual relationships with Yul, Andrea and Rory. I have slacked with both Cass and Ozzy lately which is something I need to really work on soon and in a big way or it'll be my undoing.

[Joaquin Souberbielle]

- Mon Aug 21, 2017 5:04:41 pm #9096 With Cass immune, who are you targeting? Who do you think you'll have on board for such a plan?

[Joaquin Souberbielle]

- Mon Aug 21, 2017 5:16:03 pm #9099 Also, if you are really fucking worried about tonight, why didn't you strike last night?

[Rudy]

- Mon Aug 21, 2017 6:52:49 pm #9105

Also, if you are really fucking worried about tonight, why didn't you strike last night?

Because taking Cass out then would have left a lot of chaos and uncertainty in the game for me. I would have emerged as the biggest target with little security to follow up my move at the F7 when big moves typically happen. It would have been a risk not worth the potential consequences.

If I took Cass out last night, I lose the trust of Ozzy and Andrea while having to depend on Mia/Sarah who don't have any reason to stick with me long term. It's F7 and they decide to break up the last remaining pair by taking me or Yul out.

That's why I didn't make my move last night...

[Rudy]

- Mon Aug 21, 2017 7:16:13 pm #9106 Shit's going down. And my name is being brought up. Luckily, a king always has his knights around to protect him and mount a counter-offensive. #BeckyBros4Lyfe

[Rudy]

- Mon Aug 21, 2017 9:08:54 pm #9109 I'm a little concerned about Yul. Last night was epic for him. He cussed Sarah out. He's like the kid at school who has been getting bullied for a while now and never cusses. Except last night he had had enough. He used a cuss word for the first time, and it was POWERFUL. I know that Mia/Sarah were on the ATTACK towards Yul and Andrea last night. It could have lit something in him that makes him want to turn on me. I hope not. I've tried my best to ease both his and Andrea's insecurities. I know they're not working as much on Andrea but Yul I'm hopeful is still in my corner. If not, then I'm ALL THE WAY fucked.

But as it stands, it appears my knights are doing the work for me as usual and corralling around Andrea as a target. This is what Yul has wanted for a while and also what Ozzy has suggested this round, so as their king, I must oblige. Now, I have to just get Rory in on it, and it's a full on Becky Boy take down this vote! WISH ME LUCK!

[Rudy]

- Mon Aug 21, 2017 10:28:39 pm #9112 My paranoia is ratcheting up. I feel like everyone is against me, including Yul. I'm losing it.

Winning immunity those few times and gaining a comfortable control over the game gave me too great a sense of security. After last night's explosive TC, I feel like I'm in danger again for the very first time in a looong time and I'm not handling it well, mentally. I need Yul to relax and calm me down like he usually does, but he isn't being as reassuring as he usually is.

I feel myself wanting to get super aggressive and cutthroat. It's my natural instinct, but hasn't always led me to my end goal of winning the game. All of a sudden, I am gunning HARD for Andrea. I feel like I blacked out my messages earlier. Is this how King Rudy is? LOL I literally black out and don't remember how nasty and aggressive my tone is. I'm coming to my senses now and realized I just put a HUGE target on Andrea's back and I'm not even sure if that's my BEST move this round.

We'll see. Talking about it in my confessional is therapeutic. There's still time to revert back to a Sarah vote. Or carry on and push Andrea out of this game and give the jury what they want.

[Rudy]

- Mon Aug 21, 2017 11:04:37 pm #9113 This literally could be the episode that I morph back into my Legends OTTN persona. MUST.RESIST.

I am ready to fucking call Sarah out for targeting me though. I HATE her! Shame on me for not fighting harder for Mia to stay like I knew I should have. I already have the thread title ready and open in another window: "ATTN: LEAVE ME ALONE SARAH"

[Rudy]

- Tue Aug 22, 2017 12:47:17 am #9117 I've decided that when people get here tonight, I'm blowing Andrea's game up. She's coming after me. So is Cass as far as I'm concerned. I have to convince people that it's better Andrea goes over myself. Fuck Sarah for skating by this round. If Rory is the fucking swing vote this round, I will shoot myself. I have burned him so many times, and he has returned to me like an abused pup. Will this be the time he finally sets his foot down with me? I hope not. I feel like I need to turn up the emotional manipulation a tiny bit with both him and yul to ensure they stick by me.