Stranded for Revenge

Figured I would make this to post my thoughts on the game, good and bad, where I think I went wrong, etc.

go for it bruh

I think I've said it enough but this season was a whirlwind. It did NOT go anywhere near what I had planned, or even thought could happen. I thought this season was going to be difficult as shit and that I would be premerge for sure. But here I am, fifth place. AGAIN. I am not a closer, am I?

Premerge was pretty fun. Getting to play with Penner and Cass was fun as hell. Voting out Lil was great, voting out Sophie was greater, and voting out Candice was like THE greatest. I had fun making plans, voting enemies, and just playing the game.

Then the big ~scandal~ happened. That was the point where I almost just quit so everyone else could continue playing. If I fucked up, then fine I'll leave. I literally said aloud, to my roommates, I'm quitting because this is shitty on so many levels. Seeing people stick up for me was nice, obviously, but I just kept thinking, "I'm such a huge target if I get to stay here." And then when we got in that situation where we had to vote out one of the four and Wigles said Ashley's name I reconsidered. I had a moment, like I've mentioned before, of pure fuck it. If I'm going to be a big threat because people are mad at me, then let's fucking run with it. I think I called myself and Wigles a hybrid Cersei blowing up the sept and the highsparrow (which is Ashley in this case, if you were wondering).

But I came into the merge and literally had people saying, "That was awesome." "Who cares, no sweat off my back." "Glad you did that." I was shocked, but that's when I knew who I could play with so it helped. And of course having Mia try to have me explain my game to her... lol no thanks. The weekend of the merge was perfect, no heat, making bonds.

The merge portion until F7 was alright. I didn't feel in control of anything, I didn't feel like I had power because I sat back after the ~scandal~. And I was afraid to put myself out there in a power position because the people that did got cut. Andrea was the one to break that chain I think and it was when she saved my ass. That was the point where I wanted to have fun again. Make plans, plot blindsides, play fucking survivor. THAT'S WHY I AM HERE. And god it was kind of fun, voting Rudy (sorry bud), voting Andrea (bad call, whoops), and then thinking I can actually make it. I'm right there.

And Cass raining down on my parade... ugh. II fucking knew she wouldn't stick to it either. I knew she would rather just go to F4 as the only threat knowing her odds at immunity were phenomenal. And she played me to the very end. I LITERALLY THOUGHT SHE PLAYED THE IDOL ON SARAH SO HER AND SARAH COULD VOTE OUT YUL. Like holy shit she brainwarped me into thinking that way. She's that fucking good. I hope she wins this final immunity challenge, because if she doesn't and shows up here tomorrow, I will never let her live it down. Especially if Sarah wins the challenge... omg kill me now.

Anyway, I had a good time overall. No regrets. I would do it all over the same way (maybe change the Andrea boot, but I don't even think I could have). Going out in 5th place feels pretty good, especially knowing I had this thing ON LOCK at final tribal. One day I'll get there lol.

Thanks for having me back!

Really liked playing the game with you a lot. Becky Bros 4 Lyfe

Please send me a tweet when you finally get cast for the Bachelor.

Rudy wrote:Please send me a tweet when you finally get cast for the Bachelor.

I'd like to be included in this narrative.